2004-09-23 - 10:15 AM
** Go here: http://www.darkinn.w3.pl/gothic/asstellyte/asstellyte.html.es
Go to the bottom, underneath 1983, and look at number two, a song called "Too High." It's all instrumental, and this is what I wrote this song to. This is the last entry I will ever put up on this site. Thanks to all for reading my diary. I hope you all have a wonderful life.**
Fuck this disease
Cut myself, let me bleed
Kill myself, my release
In my death, I’ll find peace
Worthless.. there’s nothing I can say
Hopeless.. everything’s slipped away
Faithless.. God is dead, I won’t pray
Dreamless.. all my dreams fade to gray
Heavy.. these scars weigh a ton
Deadly.. take the bullet, load the gun
Darkness.. aim it up, shoot the Sun
Truth.. I swear that I am done
No.. no more running from this shit
No.. no more hiding from this shit
No.. no more bleeding from this shit
No.. no more crying from this shit
Speak.. you won’t be the first
To try to reverse
This unrelenting curse
It’s the worst kind
It’s my mind it infects
It’s getting stronger
And lasting longer
Forcing me to disconnect
I can’t forget..
All these scars on my wrists
Remember all the days I missed
Reminds me why I’m always pissed
Makes me seek destructive things that I can do to myself
Smoking, cutting, huffing, drinking to destroy my health
This is goodbye
Don’t cry for me
This is goodbye
Don’t waste your tears on me (2x)
Lies.. all the answers you create
Won’t stop this fucking hate
Can’t make me concentrate
Blind.. when will you realize
Everything in my eyes
I despise, so I break all ties
Pointless.. everything just repeats
Scars.. these wounds always bleed
Failure.. I crumble in defeat
Shame.. your eyes I won’t meet
It ends tonight
I’m not gonna fight it
Suicidal..
That’s what I’ve decided
Plead all you want, but I won’t change my mind
I picked a place, picked a time
No more rhymes
Once I cross that line
Fault.. I’ll take all the blame
Fuck.. I’m going insane
Gone.. blown a hole in my brain
Dead.. bury me with the pain
This is goodbye
Don’t cry for me
This is goodbye
Don’t waste your tears on me (4x)
This is good-(Gun shot)..
