2005-05-23 - 1:32 AM
Thanks for this curse
This "gift" hurts
My faith has died
Still watering the burn inside
But You didn't have a fucking thing to do with it
You never played a fucking part in it
I've given so much I'll die in it
But You still feel its Your right to fuck with it
Fail.. I have failed You in my life
Cuz You have failed me in my mind
I learned what failure is all about
You’re fucking dead to me
Are you sure I won’t try?
If I cry, then I can't see
I’ve drowned these tears so I can see
The reality inside of me
Is this what You want to hear?
I fucking know You’re real
You fucking know I'm here
I know You better than I know myself
I serve You better than I serve myself
So tell me why.. why is this in me?
But I'm still breathing
I’m still praying to that selfish God within me
To that hollow God that loves me
I praise Your fucking name
I fulfill Your fucking desires...
I may fail, but You have to pick me up to see
I may fail, but You have to test me out to see
You scatter, I have to gather
Falling down over and over, but I still gather
You scatter, I have to gather
Falling down over and over, but I will gather
Why?..
