2006-02-20 - 12:57 AM
I feel as if time itself is standing still
Holding its breath..
Giving me an eternity to make this decision
I separate myself from everything
Refuse the hands of God and Satan alike
And now it’s just me.. just me
I can’t take my life
Because there’s nothing left to take
Everything that I seem to be
Is everything that I’ve had to fake
This sickness took everything..
Everything that I loved from me
This shell of a man that’s left
I'm not who I’m supposed to be
I don’t care about the pain I’ll cause
I’m not gonna put my escape on pause
For you, for him, for her.. for anyone
I’m tired of living in a giant cycle
Burning in hatred and drowning in sadness
Grasping near-happiness, just to be crushed tenfold
Trying, failing, trying, failing, trying..
How many times must I re-live this?
And why?
Hurting, numb, hurting, numb, hurting..
How many life-times of blood have a bled?
And for what?!
It’s time to make a decision
And now it’s just me.. just me
