2006-09-11 - 11:32 PM
Some say there is nothing to fear but fear itself
I wonder if the same holds true for hate?
Well I think whoever said that is full of shit
Becuz I hate this never-ending nightmare
That festers inside me like an infected wound
Shooting pain through my legs with every step
Slowing me down.. it’s bringing me down
I feel like it won’t die until it kills me..
I thought it was gone
But it still lives on
Deconstructing my mind and body
These razor-scarred hands are trying to hold my head together
Broken bottles
My nose bleeding again
A deep breath, carving out another layer of my mind..
The old methods don’t work
And the working methods are getting old
My heart is turning cold again
I’m reverting back to what it wants
I’m dying again..
You gave it to me
But You won’t save me from it
Is this a test I was meant to pass?
Cuz I’ve tried to put it in the past
But I still feel it..
It never goes away
And I'm using my last shred of hope
So I hope You’re there
I really hope You’re listening
To this monologue from within
Cuz inside me there’s another person
Still waiting to be seen
